Thursday, 20 June 2013
The past 3 week's have been a crazy whirlwind ... I literally feel like parts of those weeks are "missing" in my mind. First Eden started with a terrible flare up together with tonsillitis...the flare up was excruciating ... red, puss, oozy, itchy AND burnt like hell ... then last week she started shedding skin like a reptile ... itching a lot ... skin was improving but cracked and leaking fluid ... she's been following a healthy strict diet and been relaxing in the winter sun every day ... she's been seeing a homeopath every week that's been a lifesaver for all of us. Through all of this Eden's been writing exams and the school have been kind enough to allow her to stay home until she's recovered. This week her skin started improving drastically ... but she was incredibly ill and feverish ... I at one point wondered if she had shingles as she developed a odd looking rash on her back leg ... luckily it's not shingles and we are all relieved but she does have .... tonsillitis together with a bladder infection so the Doc (homepath and GP ... who by the way is FULLY SUPPORTING us with the TSW journey both agreed to get Eden on a course of antibiotics).... she's doing a lot better now ... and ... Her exams are finally finished!! YAY!! Below are pictures of her legs 6 weeks ago, last week and how it is looking today. Little victories ... Little blessings ... so grateful to have them.... oh and one more thing ... we've started adding Epsom salt to her bath every day (which I've now learned is a mineral ... magnesium and not salt ... who knew :) )
Thursday, 13 June 2013
Even though Eden is far from 100 % healed ... we are not going to allow this to drag us into a tunnel of despair and darkness ... we are going to celebrate every little victory...no matter how small. Even though she's itchy ... it is bearable. Even though she's still covered in red burning rashes on both her legs and arms...with cracked areas and smelly water running out of them ... Even though she is flaking like Crazy ... Even though she has a sore throat, reflux (which she had last time as a baby), tummy aches, nausea at times, bladder infection and have lost a lot of weight because of her decreased appetite... Here's our little victory: Her face is looking sooooo much better (I don't know if it's busy healing or if the flare up is just gone ... for now ... what matters is that her face is looking better."..and she is happier. Our second little victory is that for the first time in 2 weeks she could actually go for a long walk today ... without discomfort and pain. Our third little victory is that her first week of exams are basically done and dusted and it went well ... she studied really hard (I had to sit next to her the entire time to remind her to study otherwise she would scratch constantly and forget to study). 3 Victories in one week!! 3 Blessings in one week!! So grateful to see the light at the end of the tunnel even though it's still far away and at times even gone. Below are some pictures (skin flaking, how her legs are currently looking (it's shiny because we applied ointment) and how her face looks currently ... and then a nice sun tan through our lounge window :D (I really think the sun is helping A LOT!!)
Saturday, 8 June 2013
This past week have been hell!! Eden's skin's on fire ... burning (not as itchy), red, flaky, cracks in certain places and leaks water...she also had tonsillitis but is doing a lot better now...our homeopath gave her medicine and tonsils cleared up without any antibiotics (little victory!!) I'm also very grateful to have found gluten free products (see pictures) in a local health shop: rice spaghetti, brown rice pasta/ gluten free/ egg free dairy free/ wheat free pancake mixture, rice milk (she hates the taste so I'll be drinking it ... at least she drinks coconut milk). Below are some of the pictures of how her skin was looking earlier this week ... the redness have lightened a bit(took the pictures today where she's slightly lighter) I am reminded by the words of one of my friends to Eden: "Don't get discouraged, celebrate every small improvement and know that you are not alone"
Friday, 7 June 2013
Wednesday, 5 June 2013
Eden's exams are starting on Monday ... she wrote 2 tests today (comprehension test and creative writing) ... the school have been incredibly accommodating, understanding & supportive. They informed me that I can collect Eden's work every week from the office for as long as I need to until Eden is better. So I'm basically home schooling her (using their school system). We are both so grateful because this way Eden feels less stressed out and don't have to be exposed to bullies and insensitivity of those around her. She will be going into the school office every day ... write her exam and come home strait after. We took Eden to our doctor that's been working with her for the past 3 years ... the doctor is very supportive in our decision to stop cortisone treatment and allowing her body to heal itself...she knows Eden and her medical history in detail...she even wants to read more about TSW so I've emailed her as well as our homeopath the Itsan website... I am so grateful that they are not simply disregarding what I am saying but that they are completely open to this idea. She suggested I use Cod liver oil, Omege 3, 6, 9 as well as Evening Primrose oil. Eden's tonsils are looking a lot better ... our homeopath is amazing! I took the kids for a walk to the park and managed to take a picture of Eden's legs at the back: extremely red ... not as itchy ... more burning ... her face is little swollen (especially around her mouth and eyes) ... she has red patches and A LOT of flaking ... she hates that part the most ... I think she can handle eczema being on her body but not on her face ... She wears a hat and sunglasses when she's out in the sun because her eyes are slightly sensitive to the sun at the moment and the wind us irritating her ... having said that ... they loved their walk to the park.
Monday, 3 June 2013
Turns out Eden's got tonsillitis (I'm guessing that all the poison in her body is working it's way out and hence the tonsillitis). The doctor showed me her throat this morning ... apologies for the graphic description: she has pimples (or what looks like pimples) in the back of her throat that's oozing/dripping puss. He added some stuff to her current natural medication ... she's already feeling better and looking happier. She was lying in the sun with her baby brother today (it's winter here by us so we can't really lie in the sun outside, so they just made a nice comfortable blanket bed on the floor in our living room where the sun shines brightest ... she loved it and felt all lazy and relaxed after about 1/2hour of relaxing... then we brushed the dead skin off and moisturised her body. We joined the Itsan forum today ... I am so happy ... finally feel like we have support ... people that really really understands. Been a good day despite our trials.
Sunday, 2 June 2013
Yesterday was a really emotional day for us ... hence the depressing blog post. But I'm not making excuses for it ... this is life!! This is our trial ... and trials are blooming difficult ... it's a constant roller coaster ride and some days (as the mom of a child with atopic eczema) I feel like I am literally just holding my breath ... putting my head down and going. After a good nights rest (my wonderful husband looks after the baby at night so I can rest and be there for Eden when she needs me)life looks a little bit more hopeful again today. Eden's still in bed ... resting. I've kept her home from school, she will rest a lot, study (seeing her exams start on Monday) and lie in the sun with her baby brother (he loves sun tanning through the window every day ... bare bum in the sun). We are taking her for another check up at the homeopath. I realized that Eden is 1 MONTH CORTISONE FREE!! She had a flare up exactly a month ago ... and now she has another. Then I came across the following link and website: www.itsan.org which just reminded me that what Eden is experiencing is a normal part of cortisone withdrawal. http://itsan.org/eczema_questions_answered.html they answered many of my questions and brought a lot of comfort to me ... I am going to show Eden some of their patient studies / case studies the before and after photo's. The reason why I decided to stop Cortisone us was because: her eczema kept spreading, uncontrollably uncontrollable, spreading eczema. weve used cortisone for too long (years) It stopped working and she needed stronger stuff every time. Every time I stopped using it (for example, she will go to her dad every second weekend and he will take care of her skin with the use of cortisone cream) and then when she gets home I wouldn't use it on her and within days of not using it her skin would go Crazy until she goes back to her dad after 2 weeks where he applies cortisone and after 2 days when she arrives home she looks all good but then then I stop using cortisone and the skin breaks out into red itchy burny rashes all over....and the cycle continues. I realized that this couldn't carry on. We cannot carry on using cortisone ... we have to help her body strengthen and heal itself in a natural way. Even though it's a difficult road ... I am grateful that the Lord have helped me see this ... I really believe we are on the right road...even though the road ahead is still a long one. Eden managed to give me a little smile in the picture below: you can see her face red and blotchy the rash is under her neck,tummy, arms, legs ... her eyes are swollen and slightly red inside ... I give her antihistamines for the itchiness ... it makes her drowsy too so she gets to sleep at night. She's a beautiful little girl that deserves a normal happy life ... and even though the road ahead is still a long exhausting and bumpy one ... I believe in the blessing she was given by her step dad ... that she will heal ... that this will not continue forever ... even if it takes a miracle ... she will heal. I am holding on to that promise.
It never occurred to me that one of the reasons for Eden's extreme eczema is the fact that we live 20km's away from a mine dump!!! Her dad mentioned this to me last year ... We lived far from any mines when she was a baby and for those first 2 years she had eczema but nothing compared to what it is now ... we moved to this part of town and every year her eczema just got worse and worse...it never occurred to me that mine dust and the environment we live in could add and even worsen ... or be the cause of her terrible eczema Strong winds have been blowing for the past 2 days ... with the result that all the mine dust have been blown towards us... Eden's eczema is flared up again (looks like week 1 of our Cortisone free journey) ... I have decided to keep her home this week as her exams are starting next week Monday and I would like her to rest and be as healthy as possible by the time her exams start. This is so frustrating!! I wish I could just take her trial upon myself!! I can't think of a worse torture then to see your child suffer! Absolutely heartbroken today. My husband (Eden's stepdad) told me that his grandfather died at a very young age due to working in mines ... and he was a healthy man that never smoked or indulged in alcohol. Apparently mine dust can: -reduce your life expectancy -Respiratory hospital admissions -Black lung from coal dust -heart failure -Non-fatal cancer, osteroporosia, ataxia, renal dysfunction -Chronic bronchitis, asthma attacks, etc. -Loss of IQ from air and water pollution (mercury) And that is just some of the negative impact that mine dust can have. My son (Caden - who is 6 years old) have been struggling with Chronic rhinitis for the past TWO YEARS!! His nose is CONSTANTLY blocked When I gave birth to our baby Michael in December (last year) the midwife asked me if I was a smoker ... (which I'm not ... nor ever have been) when I asked her why she asked me this she informed me that my placenta was completely grey and if the baby had to wait 2 more days before his arrival he would have died ... she said it's because of all the mercury we are exposed to and a lot of women have this problem because they are living in this area. This was scary ... and eye opening. I myself have been to the doctor (less than a month ago) and she noticed that I have slight wheezing in my lungs. A lot of changes are going to have to take place ... to get Eden healthy ... but it's worth it. She is worth it and deserves a normal happy healthy life. It's so easy to get discouraged ... but this is the trial we have to endure ... I feel like I can see a very dull light at the end of the tunnel ... but it's still very far and there's still a long stretch of the tunnel ahead of us: Elder Bruce R McConkie shared the following in one of his talks ... this is how we feel today ... We stand today on a mountain peak, on a majestic, glorious peak in the midst of the mountains of Israel. To gain this height, we have climbed over peaks of peace and trudged through the valleys of despair. Below us lie the deserts of sin and the forests of evil; below us stretch the swamps of carnality and the plains of passion; below us rage the roaring rivers of war and hate and crime, through all of which we have struggled to reach this summit. Above us, stretching crest on crest, are yet greater and grander peaks. Each one is rimmed with rivers and forests and cliffs and crags. There are deep canyons and steep precipices. Along the way we shall yet climb, hidden in the underbrush, is the lair of the lion and the hole of the asp. Venomous serpents are coiled on ledges beside the path and jackals lurk in dark caves by the wayside. Our onward course will not be easy. The way ahead will be blocked by a landslide of lasciviousness; an avalanche of evil will bury the trail. As we trudge forward, sharp rocks will cut our feet; rivers of lava will melt the soles of our sandals; and we shall be hungry and thirsty and faint. The way ahead will be hard and the path rugged. But far in the distance—its heights hidden in the clouds, the divine Shechinah resting upon its summit—far in the distance stands Mount Zion, the grandest peak of all. FAITH HOPE AND LOTS AND LOTS OF PRAYERS